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 Chapter 1

   This is not a love story,  I don't have any ideea what will be . But when you love someone like I do maybe then you will understand. But until then my story can keep you company . 

    Was in the autumn time , I was a lazy bastard which he was trying to loose his time . I never was thinking I will ever fall in love in one day . But that was happened. I was loosing my time like usual at work , doing absolutely nothing,  just waiting for hour to go out of there . Like you . Yeah YOU which you read that , what? Don't tell me you like to stay at work , you love your job .... , because both of us we know is not like that . Anyway,  the manager come to the office and call me to his office for a private discussion. Big company , big expectations... 

    "Daniel, we need to send you on the field,  we have a new starter and you need to work whit her! . So tomorrow you will be outside! Thank you!"

    "Thank you!" . See . I really have that face of bored . Even manager can observe that ....

     The rest of the day I was counting how many spiders we have in the office 24 . Yesterday was 20 , maybe some friends or family in visit... Finally time to go home . Before I move my ass home I was going to shop to buy something to eat . To lazy to cooking at this hour , 22 is a late hour.  I was watching some Netflix, and instantly was 01:30 , perfect,  tomorrow at 6 I need to woke up . So I was  going to bed . But I didn't have any change to go to sleep until 3 . I had my pet , a spider which I was talking.  Shhht ... you don't know what means until you not live alone . In final I been asleep. 

     Next day .... Deam it ... it's 6:30 ... I need to drive half of the town to be there , I will be late , something normal , I go to do my morning routine and I run to the car , I was arriving there whit just 25 minutes late . Yes , was a good timing if you ask me , but she wasn't agreed whit that...

     "Hy sorry for late , I'm Daniel , nice to see you!" . First time when I saw her i remain bloked for a second until ... 

     "You're late. I'm Anna , let's start."

     I told you I had that feeling like 25 minutes is late , no ? I think she was thinking, what type of idiot is that who is late at work . And yes I had right, she told me later .... OK,  so the day was going normal,  for her , for me was something like , you tell me a lot of things and I can't stop to watch at her how beautiful she was . I didn't know then but she really touched something inside me . Because instantly I want to know more and more about her . Was my first day at work when I wasn't bored . And fist day when in London was sun in autumn,  first day when I really was feeling well. 

      

Chapter 2

     

     Next day morning I really wake up in a good mood,  even my spider was impressed and I know in his soul was feeling something is happening. I just go to work but I was thinking at Anna all day , that was everything what I got from her , her name . All was fine until manager call me again to office...

     "Tomorrow...."

     "Of course I will go on the field!" I said fast . Hey ... I didn't want but I really hoped to see Anna again . He had a blue screen.... you know , exactly like Windows when is panicking..... 

     "And you will work whit ...."

     "Anna?" .... shit ... I was saying at what I was thinking in that moment. I told you I wasn't think at nothing else all day . Paul , the manager , was again in chess mate .

     "No . Whit Sally!" 

     Who the fuck is Sally ???? But I couldn't say that to him ... and I said nice "OK?" . Shit,  of course wasn't ok , because I really want to see Anna again . Paul managed to broke my day and the day after .... that is manager I think... to manage to broke days .....

     I was going back to my desk , trying to do something but I was thinking just at Anna , something is missing here , is not my style to be so away , but in that day I really been away, because day was going so quickly and I didn't observe when the hour to go home was come , and I stayed 15 minutes extra , deam it , I will be employer of the month if I will carry on like this , I was going home doing my stuff , but I was still thinking at her . I even ignore Fred .... yeah,  my spider pet , now he has a name . He wasn't so happy about that . I wasn't happy as well . Because next day I was need to work whit Sally . That should be my lesson when I want to be so helpful.... Hey ... read what I said,  I am a lazy one , do you think I really wanted to go ? Anyway.  I was going to sleep , but I couldn't manage to fall asleep,  even Fred was a bit surprised. I was falling at sleep at 3 , again . 

      Next day I was woke up at 6:45 .... you know , I really didn't give a shit I will be late . Is not Anna , I don't care . I was arriving there at 7:30 . She wasn't upset because I was late . Surprisingly....

      "Hy ..  I am Sally!"

      "Hello , I'm am Daniel , should we start ?"

      I expanded her everything about what she supposed to do . Construction company. Me being engineer , they keep me in the office to loose my time and occasionally send me on the field to train people. So ... was a long day . I was miles away.  Even now I don't remember what she learned from that session. Everything was ok until ....

       "Here is my phone number , maybe we can go out for a coffee,  sometime?" WHAT ? that was unexpected... like really unexpected.  Is not first girl who do that , and in normal way I was accepted,  but , I was thinking just at Anna so ....

        "So sorry.  But I am in love whit someone,  so I can't do it!" Don't ask . Yes . I was thinking at Anna all day . What I suppose to do ? Is no fair play . And anyway I will never call her . So was better like that . 

        "Aaa ... OK.  Sorry for that!"

        "No worries!"

         I jumped in the car and I drive like one hour without any direction. I arrived home and I was tell everything to Fred . He is a good listener . After I put a glass of wine and again I was thinking at Anna . Strange day , going back to dream . Maybe I will dream her . 

    

Chapter 3

        Ahh ... my day off . I don't know what I wanted to do in that day . Maybe I will call my psiholog and have a discussion,  because I feel a bit helpless ... but later . I will enjoy the morning sun , in autumn is a surprise,  but that will be a nice day . I dress myself and I go to have a coffee.... yeah coffee Starbucks.... is next to my house,  lucky me . After I called my psiholog.  She answered after the second try ....

        "Hey Danny,  how are you ?"

        "Aaa .... still alive , I think ...."

        "OK... I can feel something was happened.  Do you want to tell me ?"

        "Is just this girl which i meet , she drive me mad , I never feel so good in my life..." , surprise, surprise... she didn't expect that ... she was more happy to hear i win one milion pounds and I spend them on luxury cruises around the world than that .

        "Tell me everything!"

        And I told her how we meet , ok ... short ... everything.... she make a long pause and after ....

        "You know you shadows , and you know she needs to know that at the wright moment?"

        "Shit ...  yes ... I know that!" ... OK my shadows .... when I was teenager I had a relationship which finish fast , but I had a child which now is 14 . And nobody know about that . I was taking care of my boy in secret.  I was started a new life here . I don't know how to tell that to someone. 

        "So ? Think about that . I have to go now . I have a patient!"

        "And what I am , potato?" I told her , because she let me like that and she complained more my situation.....

        "You are a friend,  and I help you because you deserve that! And you don't pay my bills!"

        "OK... send me the bill...." I said laughing .

        "I tell you unofficial....  Fuck off!" laughing. 

        And after that I lost my time playing Fifa .... I took a team from 3rd league and I win Champions League... Notts County .... for professionals... or for girls which they wanted to know what boys doing in their day off . After I finished was already evening.  I was put a glass of wine and I was 'meditating' at something..... you know what... don't ask ... I was thinking at Anna ... Fred was already upset because I ignored him all day ... I'm not such a sociable guy . I prefer privacy. I'm not going so much out . So I lose my time how I can . Besides that I was really missed Anna and I saw her just once . Strange . I never feel that until now so fast . Anyway, that was a long day whit many things to think at so I'm going back to bed . Tomorrow I will go back to work . Maybe I hope in a miracle and I will see her again ? 

Chapter 4

 

        Ok ... let me start whit an explanation.  I didn't abandoned my child,  I was young and I didn't know how to manage,  and between me and his mum wasn't good . So we decided to part ourselves and to remain friends.  I saw my baby one a couple of weeks.  I keep him in the school.  Now he has 14 and start his own life .... OK , OK... his own life under my supervision... so ? I think now you understand.  Don't you ? If not ... not all the relationships means happiness, some of them finish bad . But the children don't have any blame and we need to move on , life sucks sometimes. OK... 

        Another day off , ok not to much to say what I done in that day ... better I will tell you more about me ....

        I was born in 1984 , a good year if you ask my mum . I had a normal childhood,  I finished my engineering university, and there i meet Cory,  which we had a relationship long than 2 years , we have the child in 2014 , was a good  year,  if you ask me . But sometimes you can't handle everything what is happening and just make wrong decisions,  we had problems whit money ... OK,  I understand , all the people have problems whit money,  but we had a baby , I hired myself immediately after I graduated, I work so many hours and that separed each other.  We decided, we can't carry on like this and in 2016 we separated each other . She is married now . Have another child . Was her dream . So we remain friends.  She find the guy who really appreciate her . I told you life is sucks ... no ? And after I move in the town and keep working for the same company. So , my life is quite boring now . I hope that help you to understand better . 

       Today I will go to see my child and make some shopping because tomorrow I will be back to work . I was jump up in the car and started to drive . Until my phone rang. Office . Very nice ... 

       "Hy Danny , is Paul,  tomorrow , can you help on the field?"

       "Whit who?" I really had a feeling about that .

       "Anna!"

       "Of course,  my pleasure." God is mercy . I nearly dance myself of happiness in the car and Paul remain blocked like Windows on 98% loading... OK... quick explanation about Windows because I think if you a woman you will not understand the joke .... in past we had Windows XP , the worst Windows to install into a PC.  Now is easy peasy.  And you had a good chance to get stuck at 98% ... bang panic... error.... and you say all the "nice" words which includes saints then .

       "Thank you very much Danny , I know I can count on you"

       "Always!" If is about Anna . Of course. 

      So the rest of the day I spend it whit my son , we been to cinema , had a dinner and at 20:30 I was taking him home . I was driving back to my house to prepare for tomorrow. So I will have a nice sleep now . Tomorrow will be a great day . I have a feeling. 

Chapter 5

       I woke up in the morning at 6 . To be sure I will not be late again . Fred was surprised the same , I had shower,  that special one .... boys will know what I talk , I dress myself and I go to work . But to my surprise I been late 5 minutes. 

       "Hello again!" I said full of emotions , I was feeling like at my first exam .

       "Hey!"

       "How are you?" I asked her .

       "I'm ok . And you?" 

       "Still alive!" , and she was smiling.  My day had a word he always says ... if make her smile , do it more often ....

       "Sorry for last time , maybe I been a bit rude!"

       Rude ? No way , you been beautiful, the most beautiful, but not rude .

       "Don't worry,  is my fault,  I been late!" I said surprised because she apologise. 

       And we start our work , the day was quite succes one , she was learning a lot , and I the same I didn't know what she learned,  because I was to busy to look at her . In the final of shift I take all my courage and ...

       "I really enjoyed to work whit you . And you are a nice person . Can you give me you number or Facebook? To can talk ? " bloody hell, I was happy even whit an Instagram or something.... 

       "Sure. You have here my number and a friend request on Facebook!"

       "Thank you very much!" Usually, I'm not a religious person but then I want to thank to God .

       "I wish you to have a nice evening!" She says to me .

       "The same!" I told her  

       She jump in the car and she was gone . I remain there just looking after her . Wow . That was the best moment ever.  I can speak whit her now . I was going into the car , drive home , put a glass of wine and I prepared myself to send her a message...

        "Hello!" 

        "Hy ." She replied to me .

         And we discussed about many subjects in that evening until late in the night , whit any subjects, she was make me be more in love whit her . And yes . In that night I've been so happy . I ignored Paul . I hope he didn't feel offended. First time after long time when I'm going to bed happy . Tomorrow is another day , and I can't wait until I will speak whit Anna again .

Chapter 6

       Good morning,  and when I say good morning I really mean it , was a very good morning, that I read first message in my phone ... "Good morning" sent at 06:55 . I woke up like a lazy bugger at 07:15 , I am late again , like usual . I arrived to the office . Is so quiet here . Boring . I take my phone out and text to Anna .

        "Good morning,  How are you today ?" Her reply come in a few seconds. 

        "I'm ok , home , bored"

        "Yes , me too , I'm at the office , trying to survive to not hang myself whit something until late" 

        "Do you want to pop in for a coffee?"

        Ok .... I didn't expect that to be onest but ...

        "Sure. Give me your address!" . 

        In the meantime I am going to Paul to ask him for a breake ... he was on the phone whit some suppliers....

        "Paul , I need a breake"

        "Just go , why you ask me?"

        What a good manager,  but I'm sure he didn't heard what I said. 

        "Thank you , Paul"

        "For?"

        "Because you are such a kind person!" ... yes , I really wanted to piss him off .

        "Get out" 

        "On my way" and I left the office. 

        I was going in the car , she was leaving quite close from the office, like 20 minutes driving . I arrived there , and she waited outside for me ...

        "Hy , I didn't make the coffee diet , because I don't know how you prefer the coffee"

         "Aaa ... in a mug?" I said whit a stupid smile on my face .

         She was just laughing at that . 

         "I prefer black coffee,  please" 

         "Come inside,  then"

         We had an interesting discussion about future plans , work and another domains. I was watching her closely. I really wanted to kiss her . After one hour and half she told me ....

        "You don't go back to work?"

        I completely forgot about work , I was lost in her eyes . But I need to go back , because if not Paul will kill me , slow ....

        "Yes , I should go back to work!" I said , not very happy 

        "We can carry on another time!"

        "Sure! Why not ?" 

        And I go to the office . Paul call me in ...

        "Where have you been? You come in my office,  tell me something, and you disappeared"

        "I told you I will go for a breake!" I said to him 

        "When?"

        "When I was coming in your office" now he forgot 

        "So that you told me ? I didn't understand,  you played me . OK.  1-0 for you."

        He is such a .... manager .

        "Thank you ,Paul" I said to him laughing.  

        "Unofficial... fuck off!"

        I forgot to say in that company we love each other so much. The rest of the day was going to be boring . Until I text o Anna .

        "Today i really wanted to kiss you!" Don't ask me why I write that . I just write it . Hey ... you know people which are in love said stupid things. No ? 

        She replied me quite fast ....

        "After you finish, if you want , you can come by!"

        Ok . I nearly jumped from the chair.  What do you think I was replying to her ?

        "Sure!"

        "OK.  So ? See you later!" 

        The rest of the day now was passed very slow . Until the time I finished. After I just jumped in the car and I run to Anna . I knocked on the door . Yes ... she had door bell , but I didn't saw it then . She opened the door....

        "Welcome back!"

        "Glad to be back!" I said full of emotions. 

        Whitout saying nothing she kissed me . God that was the perfect moment. Like all the universe come to see us . Angels was singing . God himself was happy . Like your favourite football team win Champions League whit goal in min. 95 . We kissed like one minute and after ....

         "Would you like to come in?"

         "Sure!" 

         We was going in the bedroom.  Hold her arm , kissing her . That night was perfect.  I kissed all her body . Love her , have her . Was perfect. Hey .... I will not tell you details,  you little pervert.... you know what it is ... like two people making love ... not what you find porn on Internet. LOVE . Don't think at something else . OK.  Was perfect . Me and her . We . I just wanted that night never finished . Like someone if can stop the time and keep us there . Thanks God for her .

      

        Chapter 7

         

        I woke up in the morning. The answer is NO . I didn't stay over night there . I knew you was thinking at that . Fred was really pissed whit me and he run away because I ignored him in the last couple of days . But I really didn't care about that now , I am so happy because of Anna . She make me happy.  I'm in love . I was going to work , but just for half a day . I want to surprise Anna and took her to the sea side . Yeah I know, so romantic.  But I am in love . So what do you expect. I brought some flowers and a present.  And no . I will not tell you what I brought her , when you want to buy something for someone who love , think for yourself. See now I am even motivatinal speaker. OK.  Back to the story.  I was calling her ....

        "Hey"

        "Hello . What are you doing today?"

        "Nothing special."

        "Perfect. Should we go for a walk?" She was a bit surprised 

        "Yeah."

        "OK.  I will pick you up at 17" so I have time to prepare myself .

        "OK.  See you later."

        I really wanted to say i love you ... but I was thinking i will broke the moment. So I prepared myself. Yeah ... like all men's doing when they go for a date . Shave , shower, dress nice whit Sunday clothes. And at 16:56 I been at her . YEAH ! First time when I wasn't late . I need to congratulate myself. So applause please! OK.  Enough whit my performance.  I knocked again to the door.... bloody ring bell . I always forgot about it . She open the door and ....

        "Thank you" 

        I put the flowers in front of me like a surprise. Eee .... I know is stupid.  But people make stupid things when they are in love . 

        "You're welcome!" I said full of emotions like a child. 

        "Shall we go ?" She asked

        "Of course" 

        We drive like 2 hours until the sea side . I love to see the see . I had Anna and the sea . The best things which could happen. She hug me , kissed me and says...

        "Thank you for everything"

        I didn't say nothing i just hug her . Grab her hand and we take a long walk . After I drive her back home . Before she to leave i give her the present. 

        "Do not open until I'm gone!"

        "You shouldn't do that!"

        "Is my pleasure! I love you!" Bang . I said it . I really said it . Was like an explosion . I didn't know when I said it . 

        "I love you too!"

         What ? She loves me ? God was impressed. Even the most romantic writer couldn't say that better than her . I was feeling inside like all the butterfly's going up . My heart was bitting like I was driving on motorway whit 250 miles . Extremely sensation. OK.  She was going home . And I was driving like 2 hours thinking how lucky I could be . And after when I arrived home I send her a text . 

        "I am home . Love you . Good night!"

        "Love you too! Good night!"

        You can imagine I sleep like a baby that night .

Chapter 8

     

         Was one of the best periods of my life , time was crossing very fast , we been travelling a lot and make love . Yes . Love . I need to put accent on that to understand, we was happy. I was spending that time between work , seeing my son and Anna . Everything which I can wish. Was perfect.  All until .... In one day I spoke whit I spoke whit Mia , my psiholog....

         "Hy Danny,  how are you?"

         "Working hard . I'm happy!" ... I told her everything what was happened in the last period,  and she ....

         "But you didn't tell her you have a boy? 

         "I don't have any ideea how to say that to her...." and really I didn't have any ideea how to say that to her . Like when I was thinking at that I was blocked like , I don't know , even now I'm blocked when I'm thinking at that . Don't blame me ... yes I feel you . How I suppose to tell that , everyone has a fear , when you are in love , you are afraid to loose what you love , right? So am I.  I was afraid If I will tell her , she will run away.... but Mia was coming whit an ideea.....

        "If you want I can tell her."

        Ok , that was unexpected, shocking, boom , I been like Snoop Dogg after 7 joints , fuked up . I answered just whit one sample .....

         "Yes. Maybe that will be a good idea" .... I know what you think,  I am a pussy.... ups ... even I think the same now ... so , we are on the same page , but believe or not , I was crying then , crying because of fear , fear to loose her , but in one way , is better to know the truth. She deserves that .

         "OK. Pass me later her number and I will call her!"

         "Thank you , Mia !"

         "You're welcome!"

         Ok , ok ... let's make a recap .... so , I'm crazy for her , I love her like nobody else , I will do anything for her , but I can't say to her my past . How stupid that is sound? I'm pretty sure later i will have to pay for that . But not today , today I will take Anna for a coffee. I'm escaping from work and I go to her .... classical knocking on the door ... in one day I will ring that bloody ring bell. She answered fast . OMG,  she was more beautiful like anytime. My heart was pumpet out , my eyes was staring at her whitout blinking. She told me just ....

         "Should we go?"

         And after,  like someone unblock me , I said ....

         "Yes!"

         Ok . She had that talent , when she is speaking whit me , she is bloking me , my brain is not reacting , my thinking is blocked.  I see just her , nothing else . Some people says that's mean to be in love , ok ... theory confirmed.  I'm in love whit her . 

         We was going for a coffee,  we had a long chat . All was fine until she receives a call .... I recognised the number ... Mia ... fuck ..... she turned to me and said.......

         "How is your baby?"

         You know that feeling when you feel like having the world and after all the world just falling in your head? I like whit Champions League final but in the gallery of the team which was loosing. Like all men's at the final of Fast and Furios 7 , or woman's at the final of The Notebook.... bloody hell ... I was crying at both of them , so I feel double upset .... but you understand the ideea.

         I couldn't answer nothing and I just looked at her . In my head was just how to kill Mia . Shoul be slow .....

         "Drive me home please!" 

         I started to drive , that driving was the longest journey ever , i never wanted that journey to finish,  i know when I will arrive at her house will be the final . So I didn't rush . But between all the things,  I saw her crying,  she was crying. Fuck I made her cry.  And I was crying , but I just didn't show her ....

         "You know , if you was telling me , I was understand,  but you didn't have the courage to do that" 

         The only word which i can spell was .... 

         "I'm sorry..."

         In that moment I park in front of the house .

          "You know . Today I buy a pregnancy test , I really hoped to be positive.  Because I really loved you . And you what you done?"

         Fuck ... she really mean what she said ... she really loved me , and I like a stupid guy I didn't have the courage to tell her the truth.  From my shock I didn't reply her nothing. 

         "I really don't want to go out from this  car, because that will be the last time when we see each other ."

         I was like a bloody stone , didn't know how to react , paralized. I was just looking at her whitout know what to say . In final I woke up .

          "Can we have another chance?" I asked like that was my last wish in the testament.... OK... how will be if someone put in the testament like the last wish that ? Maybe people should think life is short and maybe we don't have another chance to get fixed things which we done wrong. 

          "Goodbye Danny!'

          And she was gone ......

Chapter 9

          Give me a brake . Because I don't even know how to start this chapter,  this one will be a sad one , so prepare yourself.... don't say I didn't tell you , or things like that .

           I was standing there watch her go , going out of my life , I couldn't move a muscle. I was paralized. I didn't realise what was just happened . She was gone . My brain didn't process that diet. I was expecting for a miracle , but I choose the wrong day , God was in holiday. I was thinking to call Lucifer,  but I was sure he is so busy to torture someone in the Hello Hell . After today even I will arrive straight there and will be first in line . I was thinking to call all the saints,  but nobody was available. So , after 2 hours.  Yes . Two hours I stay like a stone there , I realise what was happened,  and my brain was connected to the network. And was connected whit a big software error. Code 404 . Because I just started to cry . But real crying . Cry like a baby , like Game of Thrones fans when Jon Snow was dead,  like all the people at the final of Titanic . You understand the ideea. 

          What I was doing after ? Nothing.  Absolutely nothing.  I was staying at home . If was covid then I was self-isolated all the period . Fred was packing himself and left me . So I was really abandoned by all people and my pet let me . I was going to see my son . The ideea was he saw me upset and I told him everything,  except the part whit him . We had a long discussion about that , after we had a Fifa night,  like boys , he made my day better. He remain over night . 

        At work was easy . I was calling Paul and told him I am dying. He said to me nice ...

        "Move you engineer ass here because we need need you here ASAP!"

        I told him I suffered an accident and someone just crossed whit the speed light in my life , broke my heart, stamp on my soul , and ....

        "OK ... I don't want to see you here until next week. Unofficial. If you need something,  just give me a call , I know how it is , is painful,  is sucks. Take your time."

         Ok . 1-1 . Paul made my day better, surprise me . Blocked me .

         Next day I want to see the sea , was windy , I was feeling so alone , on a day of November on the beach. OK.  Is November,  who you think can be at the beach? Of course me and my loniness, a woman just walk her dog and some seagulls. And I was feeling like nobody was there . I was walking,  sitting in the place where we was sitting and I watched the waves , I was remembering how I kissed her , how I cuddle her , how she thank me for everything. If I can go back in time and to change something I will do it , but what I can do ? Just to remain whit pain than I lost what I love . Nothing isn't worst than that . I still hope she will come back I didn't contact her . I'm a coward. I love her and I lost her . I fall for her so fast and I lost her faster. I will love her whit any second what is cross , any memories. Anna always will be part of my soul and what I live whit her I will never live whit nobody. She change my life . She make me feel what love is . And for that . I will always love you Anna and I will wait for you every single day of my life . 

                                                         The End?

Final Chapter 

          Hey . What do you think,  I  will let you in a sad manner? No ? Because I learned real love never die . And that was happened between me and Anna . After few days we spoke again . We decided to remain friends.  Until in day of today we are married and we have our house . We have a baby on the way. And our life is complete . Paul is my good father. Even Fred was coming back . He told me he was visited the world because he had enough of me , but he was missed me . OK.  I didn't speak whit a spider , I was just guessing what he want to say .

         I am a happy and fulfilled man , I have everything what I want , my boy has 16 now . Anna and him they are good friends. We visited each other very often . Even his mum whit her husband come now to visit us . Anna and Cory are good friends. Everything is perfect. 

         Now I'm talking to you.  Yes you . The one who is reading that now . Lisen to me . I was talking whit you all the time here . I hope you learn something from my story.  Or if not ? Is not my fault.  I wasn't perfect,  I done mistakes.  But I love a women like I never love and that women is my wife Anna . Thank God for that . You instead to stay here . Go and grab some flowers and go you your girlfriend,  wife or ... whatever and tell her you love her . That will help , trust me . Make her feel safe .

       You can't stop what you feel for someone. You just can fight for that person . Don't matter how hard it is . If she still reply you . That's mean she is still love you . So ? What are you waiting for ... chop chop .... go and find someone to love if you don't have . Because whit love we can save the world. Loving someone give you the most powerful feeling. But feeling you are loved back from that person make you invincible. Love is always the way .